my life may not be as interesting

one way that mr D could show that he's into me is to show some interest in my life. how? umm...hello...facebook?

i don't buy the excuse that he's not into facebook and other social networks when he updates his status on all 3 sites at the same time. so when i comment on his facebook and don't get a response, especially when the comment was directed at him, i feel like i'm being ignored. am i wrong to feel that way? i don't think there's a right or wrong answer to that question. it's just how i feel, so what? so if he's into me, he should try to not make me feel that way. that's my take on it.

he got home around 1am last night. before he even called, he was asking how late i'm staying up coz he needed to do something for his friends. what am i? second rate again? i would've appreciated it more if he called me for even less than 5 minutes, be real, be genuine that he wanted to spend that 5 minutes with ME, and tell me after that he'll have to hang up so he can finish what he needs to do. then i'd be okay. i won't feel ignored becoz he thought about me first. but he called me almost at the time i said i was gonna try to sleep, but he wasn't just talking to me. he was talking to me, talking to a friend and doing his friend's thing. that's not the type of attention that i want. i don't want to listen to him breathe as he's doing his stuff. i want to talk, even for 5 minutes...about us, about the future, about something.

he didn't sleep til 7am this morning, even though he has a meeting at 1pm today. why? he stayed up that long to finish that invitation he needed to do for his friend. i wish he would spend time like that to do something special for me. then maybe, i'll know for sure that he is into me and i can get back with him.

i'll see how he is with me on his days off this week. last week, he called on thu evening but it was so hard to talk to him. i told him we'll talk later since he's off. but he didn't allot any time for us to talk that friday and/or saturday. what i want to see this week, on his days off, is if he would try to call me some time -- during the day, afternoon or evening. that's one gauge for me that he can balance his time with his friends and his time with me whatever day of the week it is.

damn it...i so love this guy that i'm giving him all these chances even though i haven't gotten much from him. *sigh* if only he can read my blog...