my most celebrated birthday to date

i used to not celebrate my birthday at all. usually, quiet dinner time with family and friends or a little get together is fine with me. but this time, i guess since i'm getting older and hopefully wiser, i celebrated a little bit over the top of my norm. it's my way of being thankful i guess for having another birthday and being hopeful that i'll have another one the year after.

thursday night. i had to skip school. i was so tired already having done so much the rest of the week. my goal though was to take a quick nap before heading out. well...that didn't happen. so i went out thursday night thinking i'd be getting back home around 12:30am. well...that didn't happen either. but overall, it turned out great. kicked it with 5 other people that night. and just drinking the night away. had some shots of patron courtesy of a friend of mine and about 3 shots of the same tequila courtesy of the bartender. as we were just waiting outside, we saw one of the dancers walking out towards us, apparently heading to his car. we stopped him and chatted with him for a while. he was pretty cool but i felt bad that my other friends kept calling him a stripper, which he is not. he is a dancer but he doesn't strip. after talking for a bit, we exchanged numbers hoping to kick it some time in the future. of course, i was hella happy coz i got to talk to a dancer. on our way to our car, he drove by and was asking us for directions. chit chatted again for another half hour or so. me and my friend invited him to hang out with us at my place. he accepted the invitation so we all drove off. it was a great night coz i got to celebrate my birthday with a few close friends, got a dancer's phone number, and got to take him home too! even though nothing happened with us, it was just a pleasure hanging out with someone like him. i'm sure he was also thankful we didnt treat him like a slut. :)

friday night. i wanted to take a nap helllllllllaaa bad. i only had 3 hours of sleep the night before and i had to work the whole day. well...that didnt happen either. but tonight is more special since 3 of us are celebrating our birthdays together. two different groups and i was the link so technically, i was with all of them. my sister kicked it with us too which made it even more special. it was her first time hanging out with me at a gay club. as usual, we had some hennessy shots this time before going in. so i said hi to everyone who was there that i know. it felt so good knowing that a lot of people that i care about and care about me was there. no drama that night. the drama people weren't there, thank goodness. haha. friday night was a more laid back night even though i drank more. i didnt really get drunk. i had a lot of fun. i got to enjoy everyone's company without me throwing up after. :)

saturday. laid back day. two friends who spent the night spent the whole day with me. while i was doing homework, they were just chillin. we played volleyball with some other friends too from 5pm til about 9 something. hella tired and hella hungry right after. went to gerry's grill afterwards and had sisig and crispy beef ribs. yummmmmmie!!

sunday. got together with some old friends, minus the dramatic ones. haha. had a picnic around noon and then we rented a row boat. had a good time with them. kinda brought back some memories of last year when we all went camping. good times.

it was a long ass birthday weekend for me. i was tired but it was all good. i was able to catch up with all my school work for this week. i'm already planning what i'll be doing for my 30th birthday. so that's going to be in 3 more years. i got 3 years to prepare for it. hopefully by that time i would have accomplished the goals i set for myself so that would be another reason to celebrate.

im tired of typing now so i guess this is it for tonight. i'll see if i got more time to write tomorrow.

13 going on 30

getting really close to that age. in exactly 3 years and a day, i'll be 30. and what have i accomplished?

i'd say for my age, i have experienced a lot that helped me grow as a person. but just like a wheel, my life had its ups and downs. i've had my moments when i felt so invincible and powerful i felt like nothing can ruin me. and when an incident happened at my work where i got fired over something really political, it dawned on me that i wasn't so invincible after all. so even though that situation sucked--sucked big time--it was an eye opener. it opened up a lot of questions for me. one of them is how i am i living my life.

how am i living my life? when it's all work and no play, is this a good way of living it? i figured not, so i started chilling, hanging out, meeting a lot of new people, trying a lot of new things. the bad thing is my life was not balanced. i was doing more of those new things than balancing out my super workaholic lifestyle. and then those experiences brought even more headaches.

it's time to get organized again. now that i'm turning 27, i set 3 goals for myself to accomplish before i turn 30.

goal #1. get my associates degree in business. this will be one of the toughest ones because it means i'll have to get back to school for the next year or two. working full time now presents an additional challenge.

goal #2. get an associates degree in spanish. i always wanted to learn how to speak spanish even before thinking about coming to the states. i guess i've always wanted to be in touch with a piece of my history.

goal #3. obtain my real estate broker's license. i already have a real estate license so i'm just currently concentrating on studying to be a broker. this way i'll have more flexibility with the way i do business.

i do not want to set myself to failure. these goals are, for some, very unrealistic. but for me, they are attainable as long as i live a balanced life. i'm currently working full time, over 40 hours, enrolled in school full time and doing home studies in my real estate classes. at the same time, i set on my schedule that i have time to go out either on friday nights if i don't have school or work the next day or saturday nights.

we'll see what happens next. so far so good. i guess the spare ribs i just made and ate helped me think after all...

and for the first time...

...i heard his voice. so sweet, and yet so masculine. damn, y does he have to live so far away. :(

here i am, on a sunday afternoon, going about my business. it's a nice day to be out but i got a lot of homework to do. i have to read two chapters of my economics book and do that homework, watch 2-3 episodes of my history videos, read the first 3 chapters of history and put on an extra chapter and homework of spanish. damn! how can i fit all that in my sked today?!? oh, oh, i almost forgot...i still have to finish my mortgage class exam.

and then the "fun" house chores come into play. so i'll have to just multi task today and see what happens. currently doing laundry as i'm typing away. will be putting together some cabinet stuff for my bathroom in a few and maybe cooking steak for dinner later on.

he's probably sleeping right now. it's around 5am his time. is he dreaming about me? maybe, maybe not...but hopefully he is. and hopefully it's a good one. :)

my first entry

what to write, what to write. there's so much stuff going on in my head right now that i don't even know how to begin. but i guess the first thing that i should say is how i got started on this thing.

once not too long ago i met someone online. i just thought this guy was cute. he lives in the philippines. and i live here in the bay. at that point, i just wanted to see his pictures so i added him to my friends list. we exchanged a couple of messages here and there. soon we added each other on yahoo messenger. and even sooner enough, lost contact. i didn't make a big deal out of it because he was too far anyway. and we haven't really talked a lot yet. this was about a year and a couple of months ago.

this past week, i was on yahoo messenger. i'm usually not on it because when yahoo changed the way they sign me in, i stopped using it. i saw him online. he has a namesake with another friend of mine so i thought it was just my friend. but i saw a picture right beside his name so i just wanted to see what picture "my friend" put on. and i realized it wasn't my friend but this other guy. i said hello, hoping that he remembers me. he was being nice so he said hello back but politely said that he doesn't remember me. i refreshed his memory by sending some of my pictures. i'm not sure if that helps since it was a long time ago and we didn't really talk much. so we started chatting. all i expected was just a brief chat. but we kept talking and talking. i learned a lot of new things about him and vice versa. he told me about his blog. and i checked it out. i was very impressed with his blog because first of all, there's a lot of articles in it. secondly, he writes well. i read some of his articles and i just became more interested in knowing this person. on one article of his blog, he wrote something like, "i use this blog to write something about my life so that even if ur not with me, you can find out what i do everyday." something to that effect. (i have to look for that article again. there's really a lot in there.)

that was my inspiration. it just dawned on me that this would most likely be one of the best ways for him to know more about me---how i feel about certain things, how happy i get when something good happens, how closer i am to my goals and i guess most importantly, how i feel about our budding friendship.

so as i'm writing this from my bedroom, i'm already thinking what i'll be writing next. i'm a very opinionated person so most likely it will range from just my thoughts for the day to politics to religion and the like. for now, good night.