friends can be lovers, but lovers can't be friends

true for the most part in my opinion. i'm sure there are exceptions.

but mr D and i can not even be friends. i think my love for this guy was real enough that it hurts to even see his picture or talk to him about random stuff. we're supposed to be friends but he can't hide the fact that he does like me to a point. it's just so weird and different now to how he was before.

after drinking so many shots of hard liquor last night...i just had a major realization --he's not what i want. i'd rather be single than have to go through all this heartache and headache...wanting and waiting for him to be the same way as before. i forwarded most of his past messages just to make him see what his messages were like. he said there's no need. i wonder why. i guess he's not concerned at all, that's what it seems like. i did it anyway. he said he never got any of them. go figure. i told him i'm tired of lies and empty promises. and this time, for sure, he's lying about not getting them. forwarded messages are just like any other text message. why would he get my regular text messages and not the forwarded ones? strange...

i'm done. no more chances. i gave him 3. i thought 3rd time's a charm and maybe he will come around. i guess i was wrong.