a door closes, a window (or two) opens

as i shut the door on mr D, alex comes right on by. he stopped by last saturday just to see me for a bit. before he left, he gave me orange juice...and to my surprise, a white rose in a little bouquet. sweet nothings are my weakness. keep it up and alex could have my heart soon. im just a little worried now coz even though he's here now, he just got a job offer to work out of state.

uggh...just my luck.

i like our start though. we began our getting to know stage in complete honesty. he told me his whole story about why he's available. i told him about mr D. oh, and he told me he was also talking to another guy. i really, really appreciate that he can tell me everything and not conceal any fact...even though he's taking a risk of driving me away with those facts. i know it's way too soon to even think about it...but he wants to take me with him. i told him i can't be out of work coz i have bills to pay (and i won't let anyone pay my bills unless i know they're super rich and the love is mutual). he said i can stay with him while i look. it may sound very appealing at the moment considering mr D is practically gone. i just don't want alex to be a rebound.

so for now, we'll keep going as it is. get to know each other a bit more. maybe when he starts his job, he can fly me out there and check out the area if i'll like it. it'll be something to consider.

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some friends last night were asking me who i'm with now. when they found out i'm still single, one of them flashed a big smile on her face. it just happens that she's trying to find her cousin someone nice to date. i'll call him andy. he's 37, half white, half filipino. i saw the pictures, they were okay, for now. that's a good thing. if ever i get to know him and i like him, he's gonna look awesome! i told her she can give my phone number and if he can text me and say hello to start, i'll go along with it. i just don't like to start the text conversation coz im very very shy. she's also planning a little dinner or get together so it's a safe environment to meet. we'll see how this one goes as well.

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i really hope i find a job soon. if i still don't get this job i recently applied for, i might just go for the independent contractor position at this mutual fund company. it will take me 2 months to go through the schooling and get my securities licenses, but it might be the perfect time for it. if it doesn't work out and i get dropped from their guaranteed program, it will be easier for me to get into jobs that i REALLY love, which is investment selling and financial planning.

DECIDE DECIDE DECIDE SOON JAKE!