if u miss me, get at me

i was kinda pissed yesterday at mr D for questioning me how come he never heard back from me after my last message 2 days ago. it seems very "playa-like" of him to ask since he has my number anyway and he could very well have messaged me too or tried to call at least. in all honesty, i did text him back. twice. he just didn't get them. i didn't message anymore after those two texts because, as always, he's out and about with his friends when he's off work and he forgets about me completely...well, not completely this time because he did send out some messages here and there. i think he kinda learned his lesson somehow in that area. i told him that my phone has been acting up lately, thanks to AT&T. people have not been able to get through me sometimes when they call or text. either it's the network or my farm town area that has a problem, who knows. the only way to make each other known whether we get the message or not is to respond with "yeah" or "okay" or "got it". simple as that, right? and be consistent about it. that way, if the other person doesn't respond with those words, u can assume that they probably did not get ur message. fair enough. hopefully, we both remember to do that now.

he changed his tone later on coz he can probably tell i was getting pissed. at least i know that he missed me. now he knows too that i'm not gonna chase him around like that. he needs to be proactive too and not wait for my messages. it's good that i can hold off on sending tons of questioning message that would make it seem like im all googoo gaga over him, because i think i'm over that stage. i just wanna see now if we can stand each other when we meet.

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on a different note for yesterday, i went out on a date with someone local. alex seems like a nice, respectable guy. i met him online and started our conversation after i complimented his only picture, which is a body shot. it was nice that he responded back and complimented my pics as well. and a 2 hour chat followed that. he opened up pretty fast. he showed me his website with all his face pics and told me his story. he was surprised himself. he said he didn't want to lie to me and i really, really appreciate that. he's going through a divorce. and he's had tough times, but the tough times are behind him now. he wants to meet a nice guy for a possible relationship and start his life over. he's still young so it's good that he's finally coming out so he can enjoy his life. he wasn't too appealing for me in his pics but in person, he's an attractive guy. a little short for me but nonetheless, cute. i'll see more of him in the coming weeks i hope.

mr D has to be more proactive to win me over or else alex might beat him to it. alex has home court advantage right now but the game is still on until i see a proverbial ring and accept it.