he came, he saw, he conquered...and left?

the initial attraction was there. or was it mere infatuation again?

what is the point of dating anyway? for me, if i'm dating someone who doesn't like me as much right away, it's like i'm courting. i would do things that the person likes and say sweet nothings just to make the person smile. for some, is dating a game? once the chase is over, what happens next?

for someone like mr D who seemed to have fallen for me already, it came as a surprise when he asked us to slow down. it's just so weird that after i gave my heart, he would turn around and throw it back to me and basically tell me he doesn't want it yet. a big slap to my face i would say.

yesterday, i had to tell him that it's better to just stay friends for now until we actually meet in march. he replied, "i thought that's what we were, or?" inasmuch as i would like to explain further, i just said, "then i guess we're cool." i really don't understand now how he would think that we're just friends. i dont think friends kiss each other by text every few messages or so. and i definitely dont think friends would get off from hearing each other moan on the other line.

is it too much to ask for a few things? for someone who likes to be in control every time, im more than willing to compromise. but i have to know what im compromising for. and i have to know what's at stake at least. i don't mind if the person im dating loves to hang out with friends all the time, as long as i know that it's how it's gonna be. i dont mind not receiving any text messages whatsoever while he's hanging out, as long as i know how long im waiting for. i think that's just fair.

what people don't know about me, is how i can be just like that girl in the movie 5oo days of summer. the movie said that she loves only 2 things, her long black hair and how she can cut it off without missing it (or something to that effect). i might say that i love someone, but i can definitely cut someone off completely without flinching much. so hopefully these boys don't be playing with my heart coz i really couldn't care less if i lose them in the end.