...with mr D. he definitely has changed.
it is hard enough to keep a relationship exciting when ur next to someone. how much more if ur miles apart? i can definitely tell that something's way different now compared to the first exciting text messages. whether it is from stress that he's experiencing or just plain boredom now, i don't really care much anymore.
he hasn't called me handsome, cute or funny lately. he hasn't laughed much lately either. it seems more of a chore now to send a good morning message with a kiss. the usual "honey, i'm home" message when he gets home from work is gone. i don't get any more little poems and i haven't gotten the forwarded horoscopes either (we have the same sign, i dunno i guess now it's more of a bad thing). and no more baby talk.
i guess thanks to the internet, these teenie weenie eerie feelings can be confirmed quite easily. he's supposed to be feeling sick today so he's going home earlier than usual. the last joke text i sent about grounding him so he can rest, no response. i cleaned the kitchen a bit right after that, then asked him again what time he was going home. no response again. however, somewhere in between that time, he was able to happily answer some questions on his formspring site and change his facebook status to something that's not quite so sickly. so am i wrong for feeling disgusted? at this point, i don't think so.
i'm deleting him from facebook today because i really couldn't care less now about what he does on there. i'm not cutting him off completely...i can't. he's my best friend's close friend so we'll see each other some time next march. if he wants me, he's gonna have to work very hard to get me. i've taken a risk and given my heart to someone physically far away from me. it will take me a while to give my heart again.
**listening to: why do we always hurt the ones we love? by dan hill
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