getting closer to my move back home

i left home for 2 reasons. #1 reason, i want to start feeling independent. #2, i want to avoid fights or arguments with my family.

technically, i've always lived with my family. it's been comfortable. not that anyone does anything special for me, but i'm comfortable with the people around me. i know my family very well and they know me...or at least they know many things about me. somehow though, being around family still gives me that feeling that i am not in full control of my life...that any minute, my family can come into the picture and make my decisions for me. i wanted to get out of that situation and try something different. the arguments are also starting to become more frequent. i love my family and i thought it would be best that we don't see each other much so we can live our own lives with no one watching over our shoulders.

however, with the economy in recession, i think it is a wise decision to come back home. for now, at least. my family is not charging me rent to stay with them which will help me conserve my savings. all i have to contribute would be groceries. i have my own room, and almost my own bathroom. i know that my family's way of living sometimes do not conform to my standards. in simple words, they are not as clean as i am. dishes pile up. the stove is not cleaned after it's been used. the carpet is not vacuumed as often. not having a job right now, i can help them clean up as much as i could. and hopefully, some of my ways could rub off on them. i'm looking at being here for maybe 4-6 months, depends on when i get a job.

and when i do get a job, i'm hoping to either work closer to the city. that way, if things work out betwen knox and i, it won't be too much of a hastle to see each other. i know i'm thinking way forward too, but if things do work out, maybe knox and i could share an apartment. it will benefit him because he will save money. it will benefit the relationship because we get to spend more time together. it will benefit me because it will make me feel independent from my family again.